8dp5dt = 13dpo

So your probably wondering what happend yesterday at 12dp0 ? why didn't I post ? .. well you can thank a rotten miagraine for that !

It started around lunch time and just gradually over the course of the afternoon got worse and worse .. so much so that I fell asleep with a cold pack on my forehead .. It felt like my head was going to explode ! .. it's the worst headache I've had in a while .. in between all that I felt extremely sick - so at 7.50pm I was in the kitchen making a hot dog which I thought would help with the nausea .. but nup, I somehow think it just made matters worse ! .. I eventually must have slept it off .. but again this afternoon at around 4pm I've noticed it starting to niggle again ..

So that brings us to today .. 8 days past a 5 day transfer = 13 days past ovulation ..

signs ? symptoms ?

AF twinges/cramps/pains etc VIRTUALLY GONE ! .. maybe had 4 bouts all day ..
slightly headachy
still feel full in the tummy
now this is something a little different - for the past 3 days I've been feeling as tho I need to pee really badly but when I get to the loo it's just a little dribble .. I've lost count how many times I've actually wee'd ..
eat .. my god i can't stop eating
last night (12dpo) when i went to do the pessaries (i do 2 a night) i noticed that it wasn't as tight up there and quite loose

So tomorrow is 14dpo - only 5 days till testing ... it's gone so quickly I can't beleive it .. altho I reckon the weekend will drag ..

At this stage we are still PREGNANT until the BT proves otherwise - so NO negative thoughts are allowed ...

Best of luck to Michelle31 who is in the same 2 week wait as myself ... and a very BIG BIG CONTRAT's to all-pink and her hubby - BFP after 1 full stim and on the 4th FET cycle ! .. yayyyyyyy .. HCG 1290 - OMG TWINS maybe !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well that's about it for me tonight - off to watch Home and Away and then onto Monster House .... night night all ..........

6dp5dt = 11dpo

6 days past a 5 day transfer = 11 days past ovulation

Well I had a bit of a downer today .. you know got to thinking that it hasn't worked .. and then I thought NO, snap out of this you need to keep positive .. it's too early yet ! ... it kinda worked .. and by lunch time i was back to "yep this is going to work" ..

signs ? symptons ?

AF twinges - barely there ? huh ? WTF ?
12.15pm - major AF twinge/pain/cramp not sure what to call it in my left side lasted about 30 seconds
tired
emotional

Well that's about it for today I guess .. I've been resting most of the day - too damn hot outside so been lounging in the air conditioning ..

Oh well tomorrow we're at the magic HALF WAY point ................ 1 week till testing !

5dp5dt= 10dpo

5 days past a 5 day transfer = 10 days past ovulation ..

We've made it this far .. I'm trying not to obsess over every little twinge, cramp or pain .. but god damn it it's hard not too .. lol ..

I will update as the day goes on ....

9am

had a really bad AF pain just before 8.30am this morning - really really hurt - it was the kind of pain that i would experience if AF was here in full swing
feeling very warm (crinone is doing that)
still nausea's every now and then
getting like a reflux up my throat
extremely tired - feel as tho i haven't been to bed
nipples are still extremely sore
heavy in the tummy when i walk
still weeing
slight back ache last night in bed - seems to be gone this morning

3.48pm

the back ache is back
just had the worst AF pain ever as i just sat here now - right down low and just above fanny
nauseas
really really tired - laid on the bed at about 2.45 - 3.20 had a cat nap

We're almost at the magical "middle" part of the 2 week wait .. from here on in things should start to get interesting ..............

4dp5dt = 9dpo

First of all it doesn't take a genius long to realise that something is wrong with the header ? Yep sitting here this morning I thought put an image in .. well now I can't get of it .. lol .. oh well such is life .. onto something much more important .............

Well here we are 4 days past 5 day transfer = 9 days past ovulation ..

signs ? symptons ?

nipples still extremely sore
still nauseas on and off
I am starting to get like a reflux up my throat .. YUCK !
AF niggly pains
very tired
very heavy in the tummy
back ache seems to be gone for now .. altho I'm pretty sure during the night I woke up and had a touch of it ..
still weeing

All these signs and symptons could very well be associated with the progynova and progesterone that I'm on .. who knows .. I do know one thing .. I am PREGNANT until the BT on the 3rd March 2008 proves otherwise !!

5.56pm

Well I've had a busy day today .. and to be honest I'm exhausted ! .. Peter doesn't finish work till 6pm which is any minute .. but we're in the process of refinancing our home loan and I had to go to Beenleigh today to get the paperwork signed by a JP .. well what a waste of time the first trip was .. I was sooo angry ! .. the new lender didn't tell us that we needed to PROVE that we owned the property to the JP .. so I had to drive 20 mins back home to get the latest rates notice ..

It was roasting here today .. so it's the last thing I needed to be truding around in the heat doing this .. as it turns out Peter's boss was able to help us and sign the documents .. the whole time I was driving around .. AF niggly pain was making itself quite known ! ..

This afternoon I'm still having AF niggly twinges on and off ... just wished I knew what was going on in there ! .. lol .. oh well I better up and put the spag bol on .... tomorrow is another day of being PREGNANT until proven otherwise ! ..

night night ...............

3dp5dt = 8dpo

Ok so here we are

3dp5dt = 3 days past a 5 day transfer = 8 days past ovulation

signs ? symtons ?

feeling very heavy in the tummy when i walk
still feel nauseas (sp ??)
some AF like aches and pains
nipples EXTREMELY EXTREMELY sore
wee, wee and MORE wee
tired
slightly headachy
EWCM very watery
BACK ACHE !!!!! <-- this is a 1st for me .. I've never had backache yet while in the 2 week wait

2dp5dt = 7dpo

Well here we are 2 days past a 5 day transfer = 7 days past ovulation ..

The tablets and such I take every day:

3 progynova tablets
6 fish oil tablets
1 baby asprin
1 elevit
1 natural metformin

1 x crinone morning
2 x progesterone pessaries at night

Signs ? Symptons ?

8.43am

feeling very heavy in the tummy when i walk
still feel nauseas (sp ??)
some aches and pains in tummy
nipples EXTREMELY sore
wee, wee and MORE wee
tired
slightly headachy

Apart from that nothing much more to report ....

1dp5dt = 6dpo

OK so here we are ... 1 day past 5 day transfer = 6 days past ovulation

Signs ? Symptons ?

very sore nipples

boobs sore down the sides

some niggly achy AF like pains

stomach aches (toilet wise)

feel like wanting to vomit (occassionally)

pee, pee and more PEE !

felt extremely hot this morning but cooled down soon after

very bloated when I eat something

tired

5.41pm noticed like a dull ache in my right side ?

All these signs and symptons can be easily put down to the PREGNYL shots I did on Friday and Monday .. as this is classic of it ! .. it's way way too early to start obsessing .. lol .. taking each day as it comes ..

Bring on DAY 2 !

Embies are on board ....

Well our embies are on board .. the ET didn't go as smooth as all of our others ..

I was feeling ok right up until I walked into the waiting room of the theatre .. then I became all anxious and uptight ... I even commented to Peter "I've been so positive up until now" .. anyway I just put it down to nerves ..

We spoke to the embrologist first who told us out of the 9 embies defrosted and grown out to day 5 only 2 survived .. and they made it to the Morula stage which is 1 stage away from blastocyst .. so we were really happy that we decided to grow out all 9 ..

So we go into theatre and get up on the bed .. Julie comes in all smiles as does the nurse .. then Julie started the procedure .. for some reason nothing would go around the corner .. so 2 speculum's, 3 catheta's and HAPPY GAS .. yep you got it HAPPY GAS .. I was in sooo much pain .. but Julie eventually got the embies where they belonged - inside their mummy's tummy ...

I came home so sore, sick, bloated and tired ... I spent most of the afternoon lounging around and doing nothing .. This morning I'm not too bad .....

So here are the pictures of our 2 beautiful little embies :

Day 5 ............

Well this is it .... TODAY IS THE DAY !

I am soooooo excited .. once those little embies are back where they belong .. we'll be PREGNANT until the BT proves otherwise !

I will be admitted to hospital at 10.15am with ET (egg transfer) at 11am ... the clinic said they would only call this morning if something drastic happend yesterday at Day 4 ... I know I won't get a call from them .. our bubba's are strong !

I've done my last pregnyl shot ... god that stuff is awful .. i've had all day sickness since Friday lunchtime .. lol .. but hey i'm not complaing ! .. BRING IT ON .................................

Day 4 ....

OK ... well we're at Day 4 today .. wonder how our little embies are going ? ... tomorrow is D-Day !!! I can't believe I went through the paper work for our EPU in August 07 and you wouldn't believe it !

EPU was the 13th August 07 with ET set for the 18th August 07 ! .. how uncanny is that ! .. our ET for this FET is the 18th Feb 08 - 6 months later !

We're off to a BBQ lunch today at Chris's place - she's just left the library for a position down the Gold Coast - so I hope it's not too hot ...

Other than that - that's all for this morning .. :)

Day 3 ....

Well here we are .. I can hardly believe that we are just 2 days out from our ET .. at the moment it just seems so surreal .. I feel good in myself .. tummy feels a bit off .. but that's normal because of the progesterone and pregnyl shot i did yesterday ..



It's just a waiting game now to see what's happend with our embryo's overnight .. it's 8.19am and the embrologist will call sometime today .. I've never really realised just how lucky Peter and I are to be able to get the embryo's to stage where we can do ET ..

11am - the embrologist called and here are the results:

well the results for DAY 3 are:

yesterday at DAY 2 we had 7 today we have 6 ..

1 died it had too many chromosomes ..

2 x 4 cells - these are slow growing by day 3 they should be 5-8 cells

2 x 6 cells
1 x 7 cells
1 x 8 cells

these 4 are growing quite good and are between the normal 5-8 cell range for day 3 ...

We won't know a thing now until Monday morning at transfer ... which is at 11am ................

Karen (optkazz) in the forum - I really feel for her .. she posted this morning that her cycle has been cancelled because the embryo's didn't progress .. it must be hard god damn hard to go through so much and then be told that the transfer won't be going ahead .. so I'm sending her all my prayers that their next cycle workds ..

Kate (kateepops) - had her BT on Thursday and her HCG is 45 - she has another test on Monday 18th Feb 08, the day we have our ET .. I have been praying that her HCG levels go up .. she suffered an ectopic last cycle - I hope she's not going down that same road ..

Jadzia - her BT was also on Thursday and her HCG is 17 - she too has to have another BT on Monday 18th Feb 08 ..

The biggest hit of the night was tilly121 - BFP about 2 weeks ago .. we were so happy for her .. but yesterday her scan revealed bub had passed away at approx 8w3d ... It was such a shock .. we were running bet's on how far along she was ... I feel terrible now .. I hope that she and DH are strong enough to get through this hurdle ..

Soom good news tho woogy got her BFP - HCG was nice and high at just over 300 and progesterone just over 200 ....

This is when I sit and realise just how lucky Peter and I are .. our problems seem to pale in comparsion to what other's are going through .. I just take 1 step at a time now and each day as it comes ...................

To each of my forum friends who are having such a hard time at the moment .....

DAY 2 ...

Ok I rang the clinic this morning and spoke to a embrologist .. who gave me the best news going !

We thawed out 9 which were DAY 1 ... so here are the results:

Day 1 - thawed out 9

Day 2 - 2 died - they had too many chromosomes and 7 survived !!!!

We have:

4 x 2 cells

2 x 3 cells

1 x 5 cells

The 4 x 2 cells are where they are supposed to be .. the 2 x 3 cells is almost at the 4 cell stage .. and the 1 x 5 cells is way ahead of it's time .. so those are pretty good results ! .. a couple have "some " fragmentation - which is normal .. so it's fingers crossed now that they keep growing and dividing !

I've just done my pregnyl shot and do the last one on Monday - the day of transfer ......

Our embies have been thawed .... now the wait ...

12.17pm

Well the IVF clinic just called and I spoke to Emmy the scientist - all 9 embryo's have defrosted "beautifully" were her exact words .. still it's a long time between now and monday .. oh god please ! .. I don't think I've ever prayed for something so much ...

Tomorrow will bring good news ! .. I just know it will .. until then ... wish us luck ....

waiting .. waiting .... waiting ...

God does this waiting ever end ? .. I'm just about going mental .. our last cycle was in Sept 07 which resulted in a chemical pregnancy .. it just seems to be taking forever for Monday to come around .. I rang an acupuncturist today and she rang me back tonight .. $ 60 for each session which isn't too bad .. hopefully if my ET is scheduled for around 10 or 11am I can go to an appointment early that morning and get the 1st lot done .. then go back either Tuesday or Wednesday .. finger's crossed !

Our embies will be defrosted tomorrow .. oh please, please .. I know I've said this about a dozen times so far .. but PLEASE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Starting progesterone today ! yayyy

Well today is D-day for stating progesterone .. I have 19 crinone left from the cycle in Sept 07 and they also gave me 10 progesterone pessaries ..

I prefer the crinone as you can get up straight away .. but with the progesterone pessaries you need to lay there for 1/2 an hour afterwards .... they are the shape of a tampon but are nothing more than a waxy substance with progesterone ..

I also enquired about acupuncture .. so hopefully i will get an email back soon !

I worked out today just how many tablets I take every day :

3 x progynova
6 x fish oil
1 x elevit
1 x baby asprin
1 x natural metformin

it's a wonder i don't rattle as i walk .. lol ..

this is the exciting part - waiting to see how the embies are doing .. sometimes you don't know if your better off not knowing .. we're lucky in a way because the clinic call us over the weekend .. don't know if i could go from Friday to Monday without knowing how they are going ..

Sunday I do my 1st 1,500iu Pregnyl shot .. then Monday is ET .. Tuesday my 2nd 1,500iu Pregnyl shot .. i can't do HPT's because of the pregnyl .. pregnyl is made from pregnant women's urine .. so therefore any test i do will automatically show BFP !

I have a good feeling about this cycle ............ I can't explain it !

Well here we are 1 week exactly out from ET .. yayyyyyyyyyyyyy ..

Yesterday Peter and I went to Hawkins garden centre at Chandler - what a complete waste of time ! .. from there we went to Wynnum and sat by the beach and ate hamburgers and chips for lunch .. then we had a drumstick .. lol ..

We went to Mitre 10 down at Beenleigh and then onto Big W .. and then home to watch the ODI between Australia and India .. geesh what a flamin joke that was ! .. not even worth watching ..

It's been way to hot to do any gardening the past few days infact the air con's here have run almost 24 hours a day .. look out power bill ! .. lol .. we've had a very short shower of rain this morning .. there is supposed to be more rain tomorrow and wednesday ..

Well time to get off here and get moving ..

Headaches are the pits :(

Well yet another day with another flamin' headache .. this time it was on my right side and gradually moved to the left side by last night .. I know it's a side effect of the progynova (Estrogen) tablets I'm on for this FET cycle .. so I just have to learn to cope with it ..

Thank god this morning I feel ok .. but give it till mid morning and it will be back again .. it's so annoying .. you can't do anything ..

It's now sunday and by wednesday or thursday they should be starting to thaw out our little embies .. I can't wait to see how they go .. altho I'm pretty sure they will cruise along and prove everyone wrong ! ..

Anyway time for some breakfast .. I'm starvin' marvin ............

The beginnings of a FET cycle ...

3.30pm

My appointment went well with Julie .. my lining is 9mm .. and it's all systems go !

We decided to thaw all 9 embryo's out in the hope of getting 3 or 4 really good ones to choose from .. our last FET cycle Julie told me that 1 of the embryo's transferred wasn't of really good quality .. so by thawing out 9 we're giving it our best shot !

I am also on baby aspirin every day (cardiprin 100) and pregnyl shots 1 dbt (day before transfer) and 2 dpt (days past transfer) .. I will have 1 lot of pregnyl left over so I will ask Julie at ET if I can do another pregnyl shot 4 dpt ..

Julie had NO hesitation at all in giving me baby aspirin or the pregnyl which was really good .. altho it costs $ 20 a pop for pregnyl and because you have to buy it in packs of 3 cost $ 60 .. then my progesterone on top of that .. so all up yesterday it cost me $ 97 !

Transfer is set for Monday 18th February 2008 .......................

Please pray with me ...

I don't talk to you often, but please let our little embies survive thaw out and grow on to be beautiful blastocysts .. help them survive and implant once they are back inside me ..

Brain Teasers ... lol

Well I think the girls in the forum are just about ready to kill me ! .. lol .. I started a game called "We're having a party" .. there is a connection between what you can bring and something else ... it took a while for some to realise what the connection is ... it's a great game ...

LINING SCAN at 3.30pm !

Well my lining scan is today at 3.30pm and I can't wait .. I've got EWCM like you wouldn't believe ! .. I had a killer headache yesterday and spent most of the day on the lounge chair .. I was in bed by 5.30pm .. It's kinda niggly again just now - yesterday it was on the left side .. today it's starting on the right side ..

Pictures of the RAIN !

RAIN RAIN RAIN ...........

OMG it just poured and poured here yesterday afternoon .. it was so loud I couldn't even hear the TV .. the noise was well undescribable !

Here is the very top of our back yard .. this water was ankle deep .. my ducks were loving it ..they thought it was bloody fantastic ... as they were walking through the water you couldn't see their little legs .. it actually looked as tho they swimming or floating .... lol ....

We measured 34mls in roughly an hour .. the rain water tank couldn't handle the amount of water so it was pouring out the top of the tank where the water goes in .. it was a sight to see .. hopefully the dams are going up, up and UP !

Interest rate rise, refinancing .. arghhhh !!!

Well who ever said refinancing a home loan was easy .. need their head's red !

I had to ring Wizard to get the payout figure and break fee’s associated with the loan on or about the 24th January 2008 .. I was told that I would have an answer that afternoon .. 1 week later and still no reply I called back on Monday (4th Feb 08) only to be told that an email would be sent to the department concerned and that someone would call me back that afternoon and I would have my figures .. yeah right ! .. Tuseday (5th Feb 08) morning and still no answer so I called again .. I was then told it takes 24 – 48 hours to get an answer .. I was then put on hold and told that someone would call me back in 15- 20 mins .. that was at 8.30am .. I waited until 2.30pm and called again ..

This time I got a really nice young girl who said she would check into for me .. once again I was put hold .. when she came back she apologised and said that the department DIDN’T receive an email regarding fee’s etc at all .. by this time I was tearing my hair out .. I was put on hold once again and when the lady came back she had the figures ..

It really makes me mad how things like this can happen ! .. at least now we have the figures .. we've borrowed enough so now it's just waiting until it settles and start over with a new lender !

RAIN RAIN RAIN !!!!!!!!!!!

geesh ... the other day my poor birds and chooks were almost drowning .. the water in our back yard was ankle deep ! .. we had to get the water out of the bird avairy cause the water so deep had they crash landed into the water they would have drowned ! .. there is suppoed to be more "moonsoonal" rain this afternoon and early tonight ..

Current FET cycle

OK so I've been on progynova now for a few days .. and it's already creating havoc with me .. headaches like you wouldn't believe ! .. but it's all worth it in the end ! .. I keep telling myself I'm pregnant !!!!!!!!!!!!! .. sounds stupid I know .. but until the BT says otherwise .. we're pregnant ! ..

I have my first lining scan this Friday 8th February 2008 .. after that we will know when Transfer will be .. We'll transfer 2 as per normal .. it doens't increase our chances a great deal .. but it's better than 1 ! ...

Our Dr is going to thaw out all 9 embies (they were frozen at day 1) and take them to day 5 .. so hopefully we'll have some really good embies to choose from .. if not .. well we do another full round of IVF ... sigh .. but I've got a good feeling about this cycle ! ....

wish us luck !

A long long long week ....

Oh well another week down and now we are officially in February ... where has the 1st month of the year gone ?

Another busy week for me/us .. gardening has taken up most of my time .. but along with that I've been busy organising some stuff for Sudipa and Glen .. the girls from the forum have been totally awesome ! .. the money that has come in is OUTSTANDING !

Nelson's funeral is tomorrow Saturday 2nd Feb 2008 at 11am .. kylie27 is flying up from Newcastle and will stay here with Peter and I over night .. Fili will drive from the Gold Coast to our place .. from here at about 7.45am Fili and I will drive to the airport to meet Kylie and then we'll go straight to the Chapel at the hospital ..

I still can't believe it .. it's like a horrible dream and I'm going to wake up any minute and everything will be back to normal .. I found this poem which I will be reading tomorrow ..

God please give me the strength tomorrow to get through this .......

I'll Be There

Daddy please don't look so sad,
Mummy please don't cry,
Cause I am in the arms of Jesus and
He sings me lullabies.

Please try not to question God,
Don't think He is unkind.
Don't think He sent me to you,
And then He changed His mind.

You see, I am a Special Child,
And I am needed up above,
I'm the special gift you gave Him,
The product of your love.

I'll always be there with you,
And watch the sky at night
Find the brightest star that's gleaming,
That's my halo's brilliant light.

You'll see me in the morning frost,
That mists your windowpane.
That's me, in the summer showers,
I'll be dancing in the rain.

When you feel a gentle breeze,
From a gentle wind that blows,
That's me, I'll be there,
Planting a kiss on your nose.

When you see a child playing,
And your heart feels a little tug,
That's me, I'll be there,
giving your heart a hug.

So, daddy, please don't look so sad,
Mummy don't you cry.
I'm in the arms of Jesus,
and He sings me lullabies.

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