Friday, January 30, 2009

Heart attack

Mum's g/f's husband suffered a massive heart attack 1 week ago today .. that's about all i know for now .. she will ring if there's any news .. it just seems to be going from worse to worse ..

We are praying for them - as my family know all too well what they are going through ...

Thursday, January 22, 2009

It doesn't look good for our family friend

After almost a week with no phone reception while on their travels around Oz - mum finally got a signal and rang her friend ..

The news unfortunately isn't good :( .. He suffered another brain haemerage (sp??) yesterday .. they are moving him from the Mater Private Hospital back to The Holy Spirit - which is closer to home for his wife ..

mum's g/f has spoken to the family because the Dr's wanted to perform another brain operation - but they all said NO because he wouldn't make it ..

He still know's them which is the devestating part .. when they took 1 of his grand-daughters up she said to them "that's not my da-da" .. now i'm crying again .. I can't beleive this happened ..

You know when I think about it it's quite strange - Phyliss's best friend Judy back in biloela - I grew up with her daughter - well anyway Faith - Judy's daughter owned a florist shop and when mum's g/f and her husband were moving to brisbane he said to Judy "this will be the last time you will see me" .. Saldy Judy passed away about 6 years ago I think from Cancer ..

All I can do now is pray for them - would you please also say a prayer for them ?

2012 The Movie Trailer

Hmmmmm - this one looks pretty good too !

"Wolverine" - May 1st 2009

I'm a Hugh Jackman junkie too ..

can't wait to see this one - I wonder if they will do a movie on Storm and the other's ???

"Knowing" - March 2009

I am a Nicolas Cage junkie - his films are brilliant and this one looks like a CRACKER !!! ..

Due for release in March 2009 - Can't wait to see this one !

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

I Would Die For That

Now I'm in tears .......

IVF # 4 is gonna work ...... I know it in my heart ... this song says it all - yep we've done it all ....

That's all Peter and I want is a family like our friends .. and we WON'T understand if it never happens .....

Dwight Yoakam, BuckWheat Zydeco

Hmmmmmmmm .. HEY GOOD LOOKIN' alright .. hubba hubba ..... lol

Dwight Yoakam - Close Up The Honky Tonks (Official)

OMG someone catch me cause I'm about to faint ................

Dwight Yoakam - Crazy Little Thing Called Love


HUBBA HUBBA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG - shake those legs !!!!

King Billy Cokebottle - Roadside Breath Test

LMFAO - this guy is great !

OMG - The A Team !

My brother so wanted to be like B A Barakus ... lol ...

BJ and the Bear

I had the biggest crush on Greg - and totally loved this show !!!

Now here's a TRUE classic ...

I remember watching this when Charles and Lady Di got married .. it was my favourite along with mum's ..

I am actually in the process of buying the whole season on DVD .. so far I have Seasons 1,2,3,4,5 and 7 .. so got a few more to get ....

OMG - talk about going back in time !

I was HOOKED on this show - and soooooo in love with BO (John Schneider) .. lol .. oh the days of being a teenager !

Brings back memories ....

I am still thinking of mum's friend and her husband .. I just can't get them out of my head .. I guess because what happend to mum's friend's husband is very similiar to what happend to my dad (he was my step-dad but that's another story - to me he raised me so he was my dad) .. but our story is different ...............

We lived on a farm about 20 mins drive outside of Biloela, Central Queensland .. Dad loved living there he helped Stan on the property where ever he could .. he would sometimes even sit on the tractor and roll the lucerne for Stan ..

My grandfather died in the April of that year and dad was due to have a hernia operation the day after my grandfather's funeral and I remember him saying to mum "don't let them cut me open dor (mum's name is Doreen) the air will get in and cancer will get me" .. he was so scared but he had to have the operation ..

Months after the operation he started complaining about a sore back and from there it just went down hill .. mum noticed a small pea like lump on the side of his face which just got bigger and bigger .. He was falling over it was terrible .. gives you a terrible fright in the middle of the night when you hear a loud thump and someone calling for help ..

Mum even had to take him to hospital one day because he was bleeding from his you know what .. and the Dr said that's strangulation .. wtf ???? .. so they sent him home .. he was slowly getting worse - he wasn't eating and he even stopped his beer every afternoon ..

Dad's regular Dr was away so a locum was on duty when mum took him in for an appointment .. oh and he was loosing weight like you wouldn't believe he was almost a skeleton .. Dad's original Dr kept saying it's arthritis .. bullshit we all said it has to be something more ..

Anyway this locum took 1 look at dad and said "my god your 1 bloody sick man - your flying to rockhampton today via ariel ambulance" .. so it was all arranged and we all took off for Rockhampton .. we drove up in phyliss's car ..

He was in Rocky hospital for what seemed an eternity .. but it all reality it wasn't that long - we dind't have much money and had to stay in motels .. cost us a fortune .. thank god nanna and phyliss were there to help out .. They did all kinds of tests etc - but couldn't find anything - they suspected cancer but couldn't find it ..

Every time we left rocky for home - he would time us and the phone would be ringing as we walked in the door - crying his eyes out dad begged to come home .. 1 particular weekend we'd just got home - in the end we were driving 125klms to rocky and back every day as we couldn't afford a motel any more ..

Mum asked Sister Tucker if it was OK for him to come home and take him back early monday morning to which the sister replied yes .. so back we went the next morning to pick him up .. the whole way home he just stared out the window and never said a word .. the next day was saturday and it was the Matron's wedding from the bilo (biloela) hospital and mum and i wanted to go look ..

So we called up my cousin Wayne who was in bilo for the jambin B & S ball .. he went and sat with dad .. when we got home Wayne said to mum "dor, dave has been confused all afternoon he keeps calling me Wilf" .. Wayne left and mum and i decided to do some gardening .. next thing - dad hurled all the fuck's and bitches he could lay his tongue too and abused the hell out of me .. I was terrified he had never spoken to me like that ..

Mum walked over and turned his face towards her - and it was all twisted .. omg he's had a stroke she screamed ... We called out to Stan who was only a few metre's away and he kept saying "Dave it's me Stan" .. mean while my then teenage brother was watching all this and was very distraught ..

We rushed him into hospital - he couldn't talk - but he knew us .. when mum asked "if you know who i am love - squeeze my hand" .. and he did .. Jamie (my brother) said to mum "see mum he's getting better" .. mum and jamie sat most of the night at the hospital - i just couldn't the stress was too much ..

Mum got home around 5am on the sunday morning and the phone rang not long after - she rushed back up to the hospital but it was late .............................. he was gone ..

The Dr's ran tests etc - his blood pressure was normal - so they have no idea what caused the stroke .. they did suspect a brain tumor but it was never proven - mum didn't have an autopsy done because Jamie said to her "I don't want dad cut up" ..

Hearing mum's g/f talk about her husband yesterday brought all that flooding back like it was yesterday .. we still can't believe dad is gone - it just all happened so quickly ..

Monday, January 19, 2009

OMG .. what a shock !

This morning the mail man came as per normal - and phyliss came up stairs and handed me a letter - i looked at it and it was my own hand writing - it was a christmas card that had been returned - insufficent address it had on the back - return to sender ..

So I rang the person in question only be told some terrible news which has left me in total shock all day ..

The lady in question is a long time friend of my mum's .. anyway this lady's husband has had up's and downs over the past few years with cancer .. also in that time she lost her beloved Mum ...

We all thought her husband was doing ok .. Mum rang her just before they left to go on their trip around Australia and things were fine .. it wasn't until christmas time that mum said to me "I haven't heard from ....." .. which we all thought was odd .. but didn't think anything of it cause I said to mum "oh they've probably gone away for christmas" ..

When I rang her today to tell her that her christmas card was returned to me - I asked her how they were doing - and that's when she told me .. She found her husband on the lawn in the backyard after doing some gardening (which he loved) .. he had had a massive stroke and was wisked off to hospital ..

They ran all sorts of tests etc - only to be told it was a brain tumor .. well you could have floored me i'm telling ya .. I almost cried while saying "oh my god i'm so sorry, i'm so sorry - why didn't you ring us" ..

The tumor was benign - thank god !! - but had grown so much that the damage was done .. I won't go into details - as it's far too distressing for me atm and I'm on the verge of tears yet again ...

I asked if the tumor was secondary cancer from his prior cancer but NO it was a seperate issue - that they suspect had been their for quite a few years .. he now has to live in a nursing home - which should be available in a few weeks time .. when he's all settled in nanna, phyliss and i are going over to visit with him ..

I just can't believe it .. he was a very active man .. loved his gardening .. I remember seeing him outside in his green house pottering around - plants and soil every where .. he just loved it ..

The thoughts of everyone in my family go out to them in this horrible time .. we're just a phone call away if there is anything that they need .....

I'm still around ..

Sorry I been MIA - been busy busy busy little bee's!

Not much happening this end atm - most of it is happening in our IVF blog and the birds blog as well ..

Looks like it's going to be another HOT day in brisbane today ...

Did you watch the Cricket yesterday ? .. I really thought RSA had us .. it came down to the wire .. funny how they brought Warner into the mix yesterday .. poor bugger will probably get a wrap around the knuckles now because he didn't last long and didn't make the big hits or runs like in his 1st 20.20 game .. oh well that's life .. I certainly don't hold that againist him .. Bring on FRIDAY's game I say ......

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Nanna becomes a Great-Great Grandma !

Well it's finally happend .. my cousin's son Luke and his girlfriend had their baby yesterday - 9th January 2009 .. she weighed just over 8 pounds and has hairy arms (apparently my cousin Debra - the baby's nanna or grandma had the same thing as a baby)

Not sure if this is the right spelling or not but here goes anyway !

Maddison Kaye - welcome to the world sweetheart ... I can't WAIT to meet you and shower you with lots of hugs and kisses ...

Soon as I have pictures of Great Great Grandma with the baby I'll be sure to post them - hopefully that will happen in the next week or 2 .....

Never want another week like this !

This last week has been 1 that I would rather forget - they say things happen in 3 - well they sure did for us this week!

1.

We got our Citibank credit card statement in the mail - and to my horror we'd reached our limit and they charged us $ 795 over the limit fee along with the monthly fee of $ 201.00 !! .. all because "3" the phone company after we told them NOT to put any more bills onto that card put Dec's bill on there - which threw us over the limit !!

I sat down and cried and cried ... I was a nervous wreck all day - but many many thanks to mum and my step-dad for lending us some money .. without them we would have been up shit creek without a paddle ..

Brian - Thank you so very much for helping Peter and I - we will pay you back ASAP .. I am so lucky to have a wonderful step-dad like you .. we appreciate you more than you will ever know ...

2.

On Thursday I felt quite off - and had a raging temp ... I stripped and basically stayed in my undies all day - I couldn't even go down stairs without sweating .. anyway by Thursday night I was starting to feel worse ..

By the next morning OMG my stomach was churning - and the diahorrea was shooting and i mean shooting out of me like a tap .. half the time i wasn't even sure if i was going to make it the toilet ! .. I had to go put petrol in the car because Peter was going to a different library for a meeting (he's a 2IC Librarian) .. and I also had to go to Woolies to pick up a few things ..

Well i only just made it to the garage - and ran to the loo - i held on and held on as long as i could once i got to woolies - i just grabbed my stuff and ran .. I just made it inside .. then the sick feeling hit me .. I couldn't even lift my head off the chair .. I went from the recliner to the lounge, lounge back to the recliner ..

Nanna and Phyliss went shopping so I got her to pick me up some Bispictin - fantastic stuff ! .. so I hit myself with that and at 3.20pm I'd had enough and headed for the bed .. at 4.20pm the phone woke me up - it was phyliss down stairs checking to see if i was ok ..

I had a chicken leg and some salad for dinner and headed to bed around 7.30pm still feeling as sick as dog .. woke up at 4.10am for the loo and didn't get up till just after 7.15am .. I am feeling alot better this arvo thank god .. I never wanna feel that bilious again !

3.

Peter got his pay and OMG - we knew we'd down a little cause of the public holidays (Peter get's bonus pay for working the late shift on tuesday and thursday and working on saturday also) .. but we were down over $ 225 for the fortnight .. I said to Peter -that can't be right .. anyway we just gave up and worked with what we had ..

During the week Peter get's an email from his boss at the head office - sorry there's been a mistake in your pay - the saturday you were off sick ( he had a virus about 2 weeks ago ) they didn't pay you at all - where as you should have been paid - minus the bonus pay .. so now instead of giving it to us this week .. we have to wait till next pay which is 2 weeks away .. and by the time they give us the extra money we'll have paid most of it in tax - so we'll hardly see any of it anyway !

So that's our week in a nut shell ! .. Hope yours was better !

Friday, January 9, 2009

In Memory of Sun Ce ....

A fellow blogger and friend who I knew when we were younger found me through a forum - it's been years since we spoke and it's great to be able to chat to her after all this time !

I was deeply saddened this morning when I read her blog and reduced to tears at their loss of their beautiful furkid Sun Ce to a kidney problem ..

It brought back many memories of when we lost our beautiful boy Koko to a brain tumor 2 year ago this coming August .. so I can understand her pain and anguish .. we don't have kids (yet but IV #4 is going to squash that !!!) .. and our animals our are furkids and to lose 1 of them is losing a member of the family ..

I am so sorry Megan and Bruce - Sun Ce is probably up there playing with our Koko - who know's ... the main thing is they are not suffering any more ... Thinking of you both ..

Like Megan and Bruce we too brought a new furkid into our lives (thank god we didn't get 2 - good luck with that Megan .. lol ) .. and he was named Little Koko (Koko) for short after old koko .. and OMG he's the biggest TERROR ... but god we love him to bits ..




Bub #2 and #3 arrive !

It certainly has been busy this week !! .. Wally and Charlie have welcomed 3 beautiful yellow fluffy babies ..

To see their pictures visit their blog .. yep even our birds get their own blog now .. lol ..

www.pkgjmgbirds.blogspot.com

I am going to hand raise this lot - so wish me luck !

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

6th Jan 09 - Bubba #1 arrives

This is Wally and Charlie's (I thought it was sook sook - but it's not) 3rd clutch of egg's and I'm pleased to announce the safe and wonderful arrival today of Bubba #1 who is bright yellow ..

There is another egg hatching atm and he/she should be out tomorrow - that leaves 4 egg's left to hatch - which should happen within the next week ..

It's so unfair !

Well there you have it .. another BFP ! .. how many more of these do I have to endure while waiting for our own little miracle ? ... I give up going into the forum any more - while it's good news for some - for us it's just heartbreaking ..

Out of the original girls I first met in a particular forum - I am the only one with hasn't had their BFP .. they say they know how I feel - but in all honesty they DON'T ... most of them were lucky to fall on their 1st go of clomid - other lucky on their 1st or 2nd round of OI/IUI or 1st full stim of IVF ... here we are going for IVF #4 and still trying ..

I know 2009 is going to be our and that we'll be shouting it from the roof tops .. but until then my heart continues to break watching other's announce their BFP's ..

I have been keeping myself busy waiting to see our new FS - Dr Dunphy at Monash on the 16th January 2009 - 1pm ...... and believe me the time is flying by ... I can't believe we're 10 days out ! .. HE will be our MIRACLE DR ! ....

New Blog for our IVF journey

On the right hand side you will see Peter and Jodes IVF Blog - that is a seperate blog where I will journal our IVF journey which begins in March 2009 !!!

Once again I will be doing injection and scan video's ! .. as well as an every day video journal ..

THIS IS OUR YEAR !

WE WILL BE A FAMILY !

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Christmas 2008 - Photo overload

Well I finally got time to sort throught all the photo's that we took christmas week .. below are some of the photo's that we decided to keep ..



Shirley and Paul arrive on christmas morning - they stayed about 1 1/2 hours



The famous CATALINA swimming pool .. lol .. we didn't even get to use it ! .. somehow it got a hole in it as you can see by the top ring ....



Jamie looking at the hamper that Nanna, Phyliss, Peter and I put together for him and Jasmin



What was INSIDE the hamper .. lol .. OH and note the 2 while balls - they are citronella table candles that Peter and I got from Shirley and Paul



Jasmin opening the crotchet coat hangers and tea towels that nanna did for her




Jamie opening their pressie from Mum and Brian


Nanna and Phyliss opening their presents from Shirley and Paul and Dar, Janelle and Kerry (Paul's sisters)




All over red rover - the presents all opened !


Nanna and Phyliss sitting down to open the presents


Our christmas tree - OH LOOK SANTA HAS BEEN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Santa left some presents at the front door (not really just me carrying them from inside to outside under our verandah) ... lol

Christmas Eve


Me playing with the dogs - that's Izzy-Bea laying down with her belly showing - she loves to have it scratched






Peter's Mum and Dad on the 21st December for christmas lunch at our place